A few unexpected hours opened up for me this morning. I decided to take a ride on my bike to contemplate an email I had to write. I was churning inside, activated about what I had to say, how to say it. I wanted to speak as clearly as I could without leaking all the charge that I was holding.
The opening in my schedule gave me a chance to do something different. Instead of sitting down to compose a note I went for a bike ride!
Oh, the freedom of that! I pushed and moved through the hot, humid air, driving myself a little, wanting to use my muscles, deal with the annoyance through physical sensation rather than sparring on email.
After a good 45 minutes I arrived in Lexington Center (above) the hometown of the American Revolution. As I was filling my water bottle I saw the park above with all the empty benches. With no time pressure I went over and sat down.
How often do I do something as simple and easy as that. Take a moment to breathe. To be quiet. To do nothing. I didn’t look at my phone, instead watching the older woman (older than me anyway) wait for the bus, watching the young girl read her book, watching the birds flutter and tweet.
I looked at my watch thinking 20-30 minutes had passed. No. Only 5. Yet I was refreshed, relaxed, no longer churning.
How many times do I have to learn this lesson!
Let go of the churning story, go and do something restful, relaxing, or even something different. Do something physical that moves the energy. Then see how I’m doing.
What about you?
How do you deal with emotional charge? What helps you?
OH.. The beauty in those kinds of moments.. Much of my Life….I never figured i had time for things like that ..never mind actually be able to create those relaxing moments whether planned or unexspected !! Relaxing has never been easy for me.. Even when at times i try to relax.. A part of me seems to always be standing guard. For what im not really sure. With a form of mediation.. n using some of the tools from bse manual and of course;i have been lucky enough to have had a great therapist. I am finding it alittle easier.. I to find doing something physical to move the energy (biking, typing, exercise,gardening, reading and moving and getting lost with music).. helps a great deal.. BUt moments like you just described… aw they are the best.. Its nice to be able to enjoy them and know they are poossible…AS you stated though..didnt i learn this lesson before?? They are the kinds of moments that we must make happen.(I so easily forget to create them) WE can if we act..in the moment!!!( not always an easy task).If we can give ourselves premission (for lack of a better word..) to let go of the noise, the feelings, sensations and first and for most the thoughts..that take us away from the calm and peace we all need!!..I found at first i could only allow those moments for just a minute or two at a time…Wow, Now i can for longer periods. They actually help me have more energy,more stamina,strength and courage!! ..im with you how many times do i need to learn these lessons…???? The answer… as many times as it takes !! Smile..Nature, music, exercise and reading…. and a deep determinationn and alittle courage and alittle ….okay ALOT OF PRESENT MOMENT EFFORT!!! We all can create a better quality of life… …one moment at a time… Peace and love to alll…
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