10 Jan Meditation gone awry and found again
This morning as I sat intending to focus my mind I found instead the wild elephant of old. This mind of mine was pushing and pulling completely chaotic and disruptive. I watched my mind careen down path after path captivated by whatever arising disruption was occurring.
What happened to my steady breath? Gone. I was, yet again, beginning, as if I had never meditated before.
As I realized my unruly mind I laughed and lightened my own mental heaviness. My trying so hard was making the process harder.
That allowed for my mind to calm, to harness the wild elephant. As I felt the rise and fall of each breath I was grateful for the simple call to be present. To rest in this moment and discover it more fully.
[What better way to illustrate this communion than with Gregory Colbert’s images from Ashes and Snow exhibition]